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o0_lauren_0o @ 2005-12-14T05:14:00

2005-12-14T10:15:49Z

Hey everyone, if anyone reads this, you guys probably dont remember me, I havent wrtoe in a while, I have just been busy tryin to get my life on tack, but just wanted to say hey but i g2g bye :)
<3 Lauren

Spring Break!!! WooHooo!!!!! :)

2005-03-27T08:40:55Z

Hey guys, Oooo my gosh it has been like so freakin long since I have wrote in my journal lol, I have just been Partyin like crazy down here in my home town Daytona Beach Florida!!! It is soooo awesome, I love it, but the only bad thing is is that I lost my voice and I have had bronkdice (sorry cant spell right now im so drunk lol, im at my friend Louis, he is so freakin fine lol) for like the past week and a half and it wont go away b/c I just cant stop partyin lol I cant help it lol I am such a party animal lol!! But anyways, I am just so mad at myself b/c I havent watched SVU in like a week and I missed the last new episode and I am just so bummed, and now I am back at school I back monday :( so my spring break is supposed to be over, but I just cant help but want to still go out like every night b/c it is just crazy down here in Daytona at the clubs and shit (Razzelz, Fuel, The Front Row, The Oyster Pub, and so many more lol) If you have never been to Daytona Beach Florida durring spring break or BCR, then you def. need to lol abd call me b/c I get into every danm club down here for over 21 (and im only 18) and also I get in for free, b/c so many of my friends work at the clubs and I have just been going there so much and for so long lol that they just let me walk right in and go sraight to VIP, o yea but I am so mad to b/c they took out the VIP for the gay ass spring breakers, b/c they are cheep as fuck (excuse my language, im sorry!) but my Best Friend Ashley is a Shooters girl at Razzelz and the spring breakers are so cheep and mean, I feel so bad for her, but I still deal with them to at my gay ass job )Cracker Barrel) I am so broke it is sooooo not even funny, and I just had to get a new cell phone for $170 that I was supposed to pay back to my mom today, but I couldnt b/c for one I spent all my money on partyin lol and I had called off this whole weekend b/c me my friend Ashley, Nicole, Lauren, Brittney and Shannon where all supposed to go to Miami this weekend and stay with these rich ass guys at South Beach, but my friend Ashley got in a car accident after taking stupid Zany bars, so we didnt have a car, I would have drived, but my gay ass parents wouldnt let me!! But anyways im sorry for going on and on like this, im just so drunk and just messed up right now and Louie is freakin passed out b/c he has work tomorrow at like 9 a.m. and I just have no one to talk to lol!! Well sorry again that this is so long, I know no one is probably going to read this, but if you did, you are awesome and I give you mad propes lol!! Well take care EVERYONE and HAPPY EASTER!! :)

Love you all,
Lauren Sue Miller :)

Sooo Bored!!

2005-02-17T05:18:16Z

Well Im really bored so I decied to do this dumb quize thing lol!!

1. your name?
Lauren

2. grandparent's first names?
Irene on my Fathers side and Roy on my Mothers side

3. what songs do you sing in the shower?
I dont sing in the shower lol

4. what did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
I was scared of somthing being under my bed and in my closet.

5. when and why did you last vomit?
this morning :(

6. what's in your pockets right now?
Nothing, sorry im boring lol
7. what color are your bedroom walls?
They are teal, b/c that is my favorite color!!

8. last thing that made you laugh?
Nothing, I havent laughed in a while :(

9. nicknames your parents call you?
Laur Laur

10. best bed sheets you had as a child?
Barbie

11. favorite childhood pet?
My cat Buffy may he rest in peace :(

12. any pets now?
Yes my little Matleese Precious! :)
13. others describe your ass as?
Well guys tell me that I have a nice ass.

14. do you like your teeth?
No, they are small lol and the bottom is kind of crooked.

15. inny or an outty?
Inny lol and it is pierced

16. things you shout to stupid drivers?
I usually flick them off lol or just yell out "You crazy ass" or "What the fuck are you doin!"

17. favorite bathroom?
Ummm What? lol

18. bake or broil?
I have no idea what that means lol sorry im a blonde!

19. black olives or green olives?
Eww I hate olives lol

20. what kind of phone do you own?
Well my cell is Samsung, but im getting a BlackBerry

21. what's one of the strangest things you ever chewed on?
Ummm I guess a straw lol but lots of people do that lol

22. is your room kept in a particular order?
No, lol there are clothes everywhere lol what can i say im a girl lol

23. where do you get your film developed?
Well I have a digetal camera now, but I used to get them developed at Walmart.

24. if your skin could be any color of the rainbow, what would you choose?
Umm i dont know that would be weird lol

25. where did you go to pre-school?
Umm I dont remember the name of it, but I know that it was a church lol

26. strangest drug experience?
You deff. dont wanna know lol Haha

27. favorite weather?
Sunny so I can go to the beach, but not like 100 degrees lol

28. describe your fingernails?
Well I have Acrilic on them now and it is a french.

20. last time you went to the hospital?
A month ago for blood tests

30. worst injury you've ever had?
Well I guess all of my broken bones from cheerleading

31. how do you like your chocolate?
I dont care lol I LOVE chocolate

32. favorite kind of tape?
What?? lol

33. favorite thing to write or draw with?
Markers, and pritty pens lol

34. last movie you rented?
I dont remember, I havent rented a movie in a while lol

35. last movie you went to see?
Probably Harry Potter lol

36. were you a thumb sucker?
No

37. how old are you?
18

38. What are your dreams like?
BIG ones that ill never be able to get :(

39. what are you hallucinations like?
I have never had one before but if I do ill let ya now lol

40. worst hotel you've ever been in?
This one in Tampa when we stayed there for Nationals for a cheerleading compitition, my dad and my coaches boyfriend had to take turns guarding the halls at night b/c there where bums sleeping by the pool in the back!

41. best vacation?
When I go to visit my cousins and Aunts and Uncles in New York!! My Fav. place in the world!!

42. what languages can you speak?
Just English lol I took Latin in high school.

43. favorite house?
I guess my house

44. favorite mode of transportation?
Flying or driving i guess lol

45. favorite place to swim?
Pools or the ocean, but sometimes im scared of sharks lol

46. last porno you saw?
I have no idea lol

47. last song you listened to?
Stellar Kart- "Love Song"

48. favorite kitchen utensil?
Forks I guess lol

49. favorite driving songs?
I like a lot of stuff, but mostly anything punk, like Something Corporate, Stellar Kart, Fall Out Boys, and many more lol

50. what will you be doing tomorrow?
Going to school at 9 a.m. and then studying for two tests, starting two papers, both 3,000 words, then to the bank and the tanning bed, then leave for work by 3:30 to get to work by 4 till 10:30!

About Tuesday's SVU Episode!! :)

2005-02-16T15:42:54Z

Hey guys, o my gosh did everyone see tuesday's episode of SVU?? I thought that it was soooo good, very sad, I cried, I felt so bad for the father and for that girl! I was happy b/c finally Benson and Stabler got to do a case together, so we got to see the both of them together :)!! But o my gosh i cant wait till next weeks episode when Stephanie March comes back, it is going to be soooo good!!! *Cheers*

On other news, the Daytona 500 is here, soo much trafic it sucks, but I work this weekend and im going to make a shit load of money which is good, b/c I really really need the money!!

O yea and last night i talked to my cousin Stacey that lives in Tampa and she is making me tell my parents about what Ryan has been doing to me in the past and right now, im so scared!! What if my parents doent believe me and what if they get really mad at me or something, I am so nervous, I couldnt sleep last night thinking about what im going to say. She is also making me tell them that im not eating and about this guy at work Steve who is 30 how he is sexually assaulting me everday at work, I cant even beggin to tell you what he does! But anyways, everyone wish me luck, and im sorry for writting this in my journal, i just have no one to talk to here and I have to get this all off my chest before i expload! Well im going to go and study for Geography (test friday) and Psy. (Test Tuesday) so take care!

<33 Lauren

Today Show!! :)

2005-02-15T18:54:13Z

Hey guys, I just found out that Mariska Hargitay and Chris Meloni are going to be on the Today Show for real this time on Feb. 22!! So everyone watch :) lol I am so excited I cant wait!! Also New SVU episode on tonight on NBC, so excited about that to lol I love SVU!! Well I have to go do some homework since I dont have work today, so ill talk to everyone later :) Take care!

<33 Lauren

P.S. Thanks again for everyone that said such nice things about my pics of me that I posted, I really appreciate it, its really nice to hear nice things, since I dont here them EVER here, so THANKS!! :)

Some ugly pics of me!! :(

2005-02-11T04:09:35Z

Hey guys, sorry I havent written in a while, I have just been so busy with school and my job, it is crazy of here in Daytona with the 500 NASCAR Race!! But atleast im makin mad tips! :) But anyways, I took some pics of me b/c my cousin wanted to see my new hair cut, I have never had my hair cut short before in my life, she cut 9" off!! I was so scared, im not really sure if I like it though, I would appreciate it if I could see what you all think, but be gentle lol :) O yea and if someone could make a cool icon of one of the pics of me that would be awesome!! Thanks ill talk to yall later :) Take care,

<33 Lauren

Sorry I look like shit in all of these pics, I look so FAT and Ugly, my bad!! :(

I Ordered the Pendant :)

2005-02-03T18:19:59Z

O my gosh I am sooo excited :) I just ordered the Joyful Heart Foundation Pendant!!! I had to get the silver one though, b/c the gold one is like 300 and something dollars!! I def. cant afford that lol I can bairly afford the silver one for $100, but at least I get paid today WooHoo!! :)well I have to get ready for work, but heres a pic of the pendant :) Later!

<33 Lauren

Training Tonight!!

2005-02-02T18:19:39Z

Man I am soooo scared to start training tonight!! But at least my friend Mandy will be training me, so maybe it will be a little fun and not so scarry. But I am also really scared about starting my own tables this weekend because the races at Daytona start the 5th (saturday) and Cracker Barrel is right next to the track!! It is going to be sooo freakin crowded and busy I am going to go crazy lol I just really hope that I dont drop any food on anyone or mess up any orders, that would really suck. But anyways, at least the Daytona 500 isnt till the 20th, that is going to be even more crazy lol!! Well O my gosh I saw the previews for the upcoming episode of Law and Order SVU and I think that it looks really good, but that is really scarry that people actually do that and copy like everything that they see that is violent. I cant wait to see it though, we had a repeat this week :( I was sad lol. O my gosh im going to get my hair cut next tuesday, I am sooo excited, I am going to cut it short for once lol I just hope that it looks good, my hair is really long right now it is like to my sholder blades maybe passed that. All well hair grows back lol. O yea and me and Mandy got our nails done Monday and I am sooo not even going to be able to carry those trays at work now lol all well I dont really care. Sorry but I have to go get ready for work so ill talk to yall later :) take care!

<33 Lauren

Psy. TEST :(

2005-02-01T17:53:08Z

I got a 75% a C my parents are going to kill me!! :(

Psycology Test Tuesday Frb. 1st!! :(

2005-02-01T03:56:44Z

O my gosh I have my Psycology test tomorrow!!! :( Will everyone please pray for me that I pass it lol I am going to need it lol!! Thanks take care!!

<33 Lauren

GASPERILLA!!!

2005-01-30T19:02:26Z

WOOOOOO!! Gasperilla!! just got back from Tampa, soooo tired, it is supposed to be like a 2 1/2 hour drive, but I made it in 2 hours!!! I was like going 85 the whole way there and back, I left friday night at like 10 and got sooo lost, I wond up all the way in St. Pete lol but my cousin fillay frigured ou thwere I was and I made it to her dorm at like 12:30, we didnt go to sleep till like 3 a.m. b/c we where so excited about Gasperilla, if you dont know what that is, it is like this big parade thing they do every year in Tampa Florida, it is just like Mardi Gras, everyone is drunk off there ass!! lol we got up at like 8a.m. and finally got to Mel's @ like 10 and we started takeing shots of Baccardi 0, I took 2 shots and everyone else only took 1 lol but anyways then we had to walk to where the parade was and we wwent to this guys appartment where we could see the parade from his window, then I had 2 spernoffs (just a remider lol I am the BIGGEST light weight you will ever meet, I get drunk off of 1 drink lol) Then I did a 20 sec. keg stand lol then I had a shot of vodka and somthing else, then I had another smernoff, and I did another keg stand but only for 15 sec. lol then I got really sick and was throwing up , then I passed out for like 2 hours and woke up about 2 in the afternoon and then we went down to the parade and got mad beads lol :) it was sooooo much fun, last year they saw Robbin from the real world at Gasperilla, b/c she is from Tampa! But anways, o yea and after I woke up I went to go down stares to find Stacy and I fell down the stares :( but ass hurts sooo bad lol I have such a big bruise!! its hurts to sit and then it hurts even worse to stand back up lol hopefully it will go away by tomorrow, b/c I have school. Well I hope everyones weekend was awesome, I know mine was lol :) I will talk to everyone later bye!!

<33 Lauren

Last nights SVU episode!! :)

2005-01-26T16:27:14Z

Hey guys, wow last nights episode was not at all what I expected, was I the only one that thought so?? I thought that it was going to be more about Olivia with a stalker, but it wasnt, I still thought it was good, but where was everyone else, it seemed like Olivia was the only one that was working on the case!! But Yay, Waung is back!! lol I was wondering when he would come back on the show lol I like him. But anyways, I thought that was sooo cute what Elliot said to Olivia at the end, he is soo sweet, I cried lol I am a dork, but I felt so bad for Olivia, b/c it seems like she is so lonely and has no one, I think it would be really cute if Olivia and Elliot hooked up :) I was sad that we didnt get to see a preview of the next episode, maybe there isnt going to be one on next Tuesday :( very sad!! lol Well anyways, I am going to leave for Tampa Sat. to go stay with my cousin Stacy, so excited, but Tampa is like 3 hours away from Port Orange and I have never driven that far by myself, I really hope that I dont get lost lol and I will be so bored. Well my first day at Cracker Barrel is today @ 2 and I am so nervous, but im not even going to be starting waitressing yet, im just going to be watching gay ass videos agout the resturant and how to be a good waitress lol can you say boring!! Well wish me luck and I will let yall know how it goes :) take care!!

<33 Lauren

New SVU Tonight!! :)

2005-01-25T19:26:43Z

Hey guys, o my gosh I am so excited about the new Law and Order SVU episode that is on tonight!! It looks so good! I also cant wait to see the coming attractions for the next epsiode. I am just sooo glad that im not working tonight, because I would just die not being able to watch the new episodes of SVU, I mean I have seen all the old ones like a million times lol :) Well I will talk to yall later and let ya know my thoughts on tonights episode!! Later, and take care! :)

Lauren

Scared!! :(

2005-01-24T15:45:57Z

Hey, I am really scared, Ryan my Ex has been calling me all the time to get back together with me, and I am so scared!! I really dont know what to do!! When I was going out with him last year he hit me all the time gave me two black eyes and I had bruises all over my neck and arms from him trying to strangle me!! He also put a gun to my head and made me sleep with him! :( I am so scared, I really dont know what to do, I am so sorry for putting this in my journal, I just have no one to talk to here b/c my parents dont believe me and I am all alone! Part of me thinks that I should get back together with him, only because I didnt do anything about him rapping me and I blame myself for that everyday and It is ALL my fault!! and also I owe it to all the other girls he might have hurt after me!! I dont really care if he hurts me anymore, because I DESERVE it!! Ahh I just hate my life so much and now he found out I dont know how he did but he knows that I work @ Cracker Barrel now! He wants me to come over to his house so we can talk today, he said that he is really sorry for everything thing that he did to me and wants to make it up, and he said that he sold the gun. I dont know I think that I am just going to go over there and see what he has to say. Well wish me luck and I am really sorry for putting this in my journal, I just needed to get this all off my chest! I am sorry! :( Talk to everyone later, take care!

<33 Lauren

o0_lauren_0o @ 2005-01-23T09:08:00

2005-01-23T17:09:25Z

HAPPY BITHDAY MARISKA!!!

I got the job!! :)

2005-01-22T21:36:49Z

Hey guys, I got the job @ Cracker Barrel, I am going to be a waitress, and I start on wednesday for training!! I am soooo excited :) Thank you to all who wished me good luck, I really appreciate it, sorry I couldnt reply, my stupid computer wont let me! Thanks again and take care!! :)

<33 Lauren

Second Interview Today!! :)

2005-01-22T17:53:38Z

Hey guys, I just got up and am getting ready to go to my second interview @ Cracker Barrel, I really hope that I get the job!! and I hope that I get to be a waitress only b/c they make more money :) Well everyone cross your fingers for me!! Thanks again for all the support yall are the greatest :) Take Care and I will let yall know how it goes!

Lauren

I think I got the job!!

2005-01-21T20:24:16Z

Hey guys, I am so excited, I just got back from Crackle Barrel, and the interview went really well, I have a second interview tomorrow @ 3, my friend Mandy thinks I got the job, I am soooo excited, cross your fingers for me for tomorrow!! :) I will let yall know how it goes :) Take care!

Lauren

Reply to Livetotell Kell

2005-01-21T18:32:40Z

Hey, yes I am signed in when I try to reply, sorry, this is the only way that I can reply to people b/c it wont let me!! :( Thanks, I really hope that I get the job too :) I just got back from the dentist, and she hurt me lol :( Well im gonna get changed for the interview talk to ya later :)

Lauren

BORED!! lol

2005-01-21T15:36:08Z

I am so bored lol I can wait to see the new episode of SVU Tuesday!! It looks really good :) I have to go to the dentist today, I hate the dentist, it scares me lol!! I am also going to fill out an application at this resturant that my friend Many works at and I am really scared, I really hope that I get the job, b/c I REALLY need money!! Well wish me luck I am gonna need it lol :) Take Care!

<33 Lauren

Need help AGAIN lol :)

2005-01-21T15:34:45Z

Hey, can someone PLEASE help me lol whenever I want to reply to a message, at the bottom it doesnt say submite reply so I cant reply!! Does anyone know what I am talking about lol I am really sorry I am kind of new at all of this lol :) Thanks!!

Lauren

Need help :)

2005-01-21T04:26:09Z

Hey guys, I was wondering if anyone could help me figure out how to put pictures for my expressions when I do my journal entries, I am having trouble, I cant seem to figure it out. It would be very much appreciated if someone could help me lol I am a blonde!! Well I will talk to everyone later!! Take care.

Lauren

Episode Identity

2005-01-19T17:16:44Z

Hey, I was just wondering if anyone has any screen caps yet on the new episode of SVU that just aired called "Identity" Please let me know if you do, thank you! :)

Take Care,
Lauren

Tonights Episode!!

2005-01-19T04:35:14Z

Wow, tonights episode was soooo crazy, I totally was not expecting that! I new that Lindsey looked way to much like her brother to be a girl, I just felt so bad for her the way that she found out and all the things that she/he had to go through. I thought that it was a really good episode though. I just cant wait to see next weeks, that looks REALLY good, man Olivia is always the one that has some freak that is obsesed with her. I think there where 2 other episodes where she had like a stalker type thing. Well im sure that it will be another Dick Wolf master piece, they all are great, but again I just love Law and Order SVU and I think that EVERY episode is GREAT. Now the wait begins till nest Tuesday, I really hate the wait, lol!! It sucks!! Well off to bed, talk to yall later :)

Lauren

o0_lauren_0o @ 2005-01-18T14:40:00

2005-01-18T19:41:06Z

I am so excited, I ordered that shirt, I cant wait till it comes :)